The 3 A's

Yesterday I had a bit of a freak out.

It was one of those days when I was convinced the sky was falling.

And everybody was against me.

And that I just wasn’t going to make it.

The reason?

Physics.

My Physics class seemed unbearably daunting.

I wasn’t understanding it.

I’ve never taken Trig.

It would sort of be like taking French 4 without having French 1, 2, and 3.

I felt that feeling of impending doom.

I HATE that feeling.

It also didn’t help that I had only gotten a few hours sleep. When I am hungry, angry, lonely, or tired, I always feel as if I’m just not gonna survive.

Silly, I know.

After class I went for a long run.

I never wanted it to end.

And while I was running, the voice of my yoga teacher was loud and clear,

“remember the 3 A’s!”

Ahhh….the 3 A’s.

Attitude

Alignment

Action

And I started focusing on the first one:

Attitude

Anusara yoga incorporates the principles of the 3 A's—Attitude, Alignment and Action—into every asana. Attitude encompasses the yogi's quality of emotional, mental and spiritual expression through the body when performing an asana. In the highest sense Attitude is the balance between an openness to Grace and the aspiration to reawaken to our divine nature.

I started thinking or re-thinking, rather, my attitude.

I noticed, at first, that I was being highly critical of myself. Telling myself that I wasn’t good enough and I just wasn’t going to get anywhere.

And then I caught myself doing that and started doing the opposite.

I started telling myself that God did not bring me this far to fail me now.

That I CAN do whatever I set my mind to.

I told myself that I’m bright and capable and worthy of good things.

And by the end of my run,

my circumstances regarding my Physics class hadn’t changed,

but my attitude had.

I cleaned off my desk back in my room and am now using it as my place of study and solace for this semester.

As I was cleaning out my drawers,

I found this little card that I had bought a while back but never sent.

It is now a permanent fixture on my desk.

Thank God for yoga.

and my yoga teachers.

and my friends.

and sponsor.

who continue to encourage and teach me.

The paragraph in Italics comes from here.